How long will it be til I start to feel better? I’m trying my best to just feel better, but that depression kicks in, the kind that makes you’re whole body hurt. That feeling like you need to cry but can’t. That feeling takes over and the doubt, failure or fear that if you don’t get better people give up and walk away sets in. That anxiety comes after, the kind that gives you a gut feeling like something is wrong but you can’t figure out what and it never fully goes away. It’s that feeling of pure exhaustion when you’re trying to make it through you’re day but when night comes you’re mind is wide awake. It’s taking over my life, my days feel like weeks my weeks feel like years. Why won’t this feeling just stop and leave me alone, why does it feel like getting better seems impossible. It can’t be impossible it has to go away, it has to get better.